Natalie Katherina--Story and Thoughts.

I'm not anything special. I'm just a girl living her life and trying
to find her place in this world. There isn't anything really worth
mentioning about me, i'm stubborn sometimes, I mess things up. I fall
down sometimes. And sometimes all I can do is cry.
My name is Natalie Katherina, and this is my story. or more
specifically, a chapter in the story of my life.
My story isn't over yet, in fact, it is just starting to begin. A new
chapter unfolds every day, and there's always something unexpected
hidden among the pages.
I haven't been through any kind of terrible tragedy. I haven't had my
whole world turned upside down by an event in my life shattering it's
way into my existance.
I've lived and I've learned. I've made mistakes, I've been heartbroken.
I've thought I was in love, only to be left wondering what love really
is.
I don't take any credit to what I've become. Yes, I've had to work at
building my character, and yes, I've gone through things that made me
stronger, things that at the time I wished I never had to go through.
But ultimutely what got me here was the Grace of my Savior.
I don't always trust him like I should. I have to remind myself that
it's not all about me. About how small and insignificant I really am.
When it comes down to it, I really don't mean a thing. But He died for
me. So that being said, I want to LIVE for Him. He has put people in
my life who I couldn't be more blessed by. I couldn't ask for anything
more. although there are things I wish I didn't have to go through, I
know it's all a part of his plan. He works everything out for Good.
I am here to let you know that your story is beautiful and one of a
kind. It is a struggle sometimes, but there are pages ahead that will
take your breath away. Hold on through the hard times, and when you
finally reach those beautiful chapters, you will be so glad you held
on. I know I am.
I just want you to know you are not alone. You are loved more than you
can immagine and you are surrounded by people who want to lift you up
when you fall.
reach out to them, and don't give up.
that's what operation outkast is about, spreading hope and love,
spreading Christ. It's about the people around us, and the ones who
need a hand to hold. it's about making a difference in this darkened
world. Being a voice in the silence, and a movement in stillness.
Wake up the sleeping generation around you and take action!
Please talk to us here at Operation Outkast. Let us know what is going
on in your life. We care about you and we are here to listen, help,
reach out, and pray for you.

Letters To God

Dear God, you're amazing. Your love for me and everything you've done 
in my life. I love you so much!

Dear God, why did you make me this way?

Dear God, WHY did this happen?!?HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME??!! WHY
DID YOU TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME? WHY GOD, WHY?!?

Dear God, You're in control. I see how you have worked everything
together for good. What happened, was all part of your plan, and the
pain I went through was to bring me closer to you. And God, through
that, I am able to relate to different people more. God, thank you for
being in control.

Dear God, why can't people see my pain?

Dear God, I SCREWED UP AND CAN NEVER BE FORGIVEN. I BLEW IT! God, I
totally messed up. How can you even look at me and say you love me? I
am so horrible. How can you love me? HOW?

Dear God, I love you and I'm so sorry for everything I've done. God,
I'm broken now, and I need you to help me. I can't do this alone.

Dear God, why can't I be like them? why do I feel so worthless?

Dear God, I understand now..

When we say "I screwed up big time."
God says "Youre forgiven. I love you."

When we say "I'm not beautiful."
God says "I created you, and you are perfect. I love you."

when we say "I'll never be good enough."
God says "no one is good enough. but I work through you and acomplish
great things through you. I love you"

when we say "why can't I be like them?"
God says "I created you as YOU. and you're the only YOU. that will
EVER live. you are perfect in my sight. I love you."

when we say "I can't do this on my own"
God says "my grace is sufficiant for you, and I will be your strength.
in your weakness my strength is made perfect. I love you"

when we ask "why God, WHY?"
he says "I am in control and I know what's best for you. I see the big
picture. sometimes I say no because I know it will hurt you if I say
yes. I love you."

We often write these kind of letters to God.
it depends on the day. it depends on the situation. we question God.
we yell at God. We laugh at God.

we praise God, we say we love him. we worship him.

we question him again.
we are angry at him again.

we are in love with him again.

and all the time, when we constantly change.. God never changes.
and he Always says "I love you."
no matter what we are saying to him. he replies back in a still quiet
voice "I love you"